猜不透

I am brave, actually, not really
I want it, but fear holds me back
What I know is that I must move on
Do it, try it and learn it
Building up confidence
Chance only come once
Moreover, we are a team, I am not alone
I have no reason to move backward...

I feel myself so contradict
No wonder they all say me 猜不透
Hahaha !
 

Hui Yan, where are you?

I feel very weird recently
Thousands of questions, worries and words in my mind
My decisions made, not following my heart
I am like a grass, blown to any side by wind
I can't stand firm
Where am I? Feeling lost

I feel hard to share all these with friends
Not that they are not trustable
Just that I am so lazy to explain
I feel myself getting worse
May I lost all my beloved friends?

Is this part of my learning curve?

一线之差

正不能胜邪
这句名言视乎倒转了
可是昨天的我，脑海一直把它看为现实的残酷
并没有错……

如果说这十五年来
他是为名和利打拼
有人会相信吗？
我信，人总会有私心
但，还有什么动力
让他长年不休，就算经历了多少的失败
风风雨雨
还要回到那众说周知的黑洞？
大家心里有数

感叹
他与光明还有一线之差
众人也没想过此事还会重来
他会因这那么无理的事
再次跌倒

事情的真相
你我不懂，但疑点重重
看看他太太与家人的反应
心里有数

The World is Unfair
但我希望他还有希望
五年，人生没有多少个五年
不是说浪费时间，而是说体力的课题
希望他可以安全渡过

现实里，黑暗
可以在你爬得越来越高时
一时攻击，让你摔倒到低谷里
所以大家记得时时携带手电筒
哈哈哈

哭

如果说流泪是脆弱

我承认我是，因为我也是个人

做人要有责任感，自己的安全，自己负责

今天小意外，我受伤了，我该负责

不应该哭，但我真的不能忍受

我刚到UT家，车程3个小时，我伤口还没完全停血

就有人一直吹我

就算我能答应，我并不觉得我能做到什么

那拨电话的最后一句

我眼泪一开始流下

所以我对自己说

我要回家！

一边驾车，一边大哭回家

原来感觉很好 ^___^

别担心，我是个很怕痛的人

通常那么痛的意外，我一定当场大哭

可是今天在外，我真的哭不出

所以大家不需太内疚

我只是把眼泪和情绪压抑了那3个小时

才会那么不顾一切地大哭

不过，老实说，

有少许是因为战友毫无体谅地要求一些我真的无能为力的事

对不起，我还是要说

话说为何会突然间写写部落格

只是因为觉得今天很特别

因为我变得小孩般地怕痛，大哭

让我觉得原来自己还是脆弱

哈哈！我以为心已死！

不懂什么是痛、伤心、emo

哈哈！还有还有

这次的Promotional Trip

我很喜欢，不是因为吃喝玩乐

而是我体会了另一种道理

感恩遇见一位好的领导者

虽然感觉我们已被放弃！

但我们还是会努力！

Yipi！明天放生吧！

难得回家！

欢乐时光过得特别快，又系时候讲byebye

I did had fun with my CNY

Having empty mind, playing, chatting, eating, cinema, sleeping and jogging!

Meeting up with old friends make me feel I am damn gehpo <3

Hahahaha !

Anyway, guess what is the most enjoying and relaxing moment to me?

Doing hair spa <3

But all these end fast

Would be going back to PJ tomorrow night

To start my work (which had been leaving aside for almost a week, haha)

Growing up isn't that happy

Though I thought it was fun last time

Hahaha ! 

Can someone tell me is it growing up = growing fat?

I had been turning fatter and fatter @.@

Can you see I am covered by fats?

By the way, as I feel life isn't that easy, I feel pretty GOOD !

As I assume it as a good sign ^___^

Because it allows me to learn new things everytime !

So, wish me 开工大吉 ba ! 

I like this photo

It portrays the 2 me in different styles

One seems strong, one seems soft

Which is me? *Having no idea XD*

Btw, I am a weird kid to my mum

Having no red clothes for new year @.@

Hahaha !

*This blog seems so lapsap, because I have no mood to do anything now*

*APOLOGIESSSSSS*

戏

看了一部连续剧，好可悲，是部悲剧
原本想看部Happy Ending的戏来乐乐自己
结果哭得整桌子都是染泪了的tissue
下次选戏看可真要小心哦 XD

但对别人来说是Happy Ending
因为后果得等第二部来揭晓

很明显的，相爱的每位都分割两地
相聚时却不能自由地相爱
过度理性，只会让人生活复杂
生活偶尔傻着傻着，真的比较快乐
凡事不要懂得太多，也不必清楚
蒙蒙地，闭一只眼，快乐自在地生活

里头的爱情故事，个个都很实在
没有名贵跑车、没有夸张点子
只有很实在的陪伴、保护、付出、坦诚相处
你爱的、爱你的、真心对你的都有

大家总是说，你爱的，总比不上爱你的
女生最终都会被爱她的感动
这部戏也不例外
爱女主角的那位，真的用尽心思维护她
接受她所有的过去，接受她的任性
女主角爱的呢？
虽好，但还是为了自己，离开
如果不是为了不爱了而离开
那被遗弃的那位，可真是可怜的牺牲品

可是在生活里
大家总是当局者迷，错过
总是等到失去了，才懂得珍惜
简单的陪伴、简单互相照应、简单的几句安慰、劝导
原来是很珍贵的
拥有过，却失去的感受，比从未拥有过难受
不懂得知足、顾虑太多，是祸根
人出生就该学会简单化，一切淡然
尽力就好，不要逞强

写上句号前想说：
“人海茫茫中相遇不容易
虽说相爱容易，相处难
但只要有心，就不难了“

“LOVE is not a noun, it's a verb
Thus, actions are needed，from BOTH parties”

所以加油吧，不快乐情侣们！

First of May

When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

(chorus)
Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small,
And you don't ask the time of day.
But you and i, our love will never die,
But guess well cry come first of may.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
The day I kissed your cheek and you were mine.

(chorus...)

When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
Do do do do do do do do do...
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.