Ole Ole Ole ~

Okay ~ It's time for me to update my blog now
After the frightening news yesterday
(Was too shocked yesterday and thus, didn't update here)
It was about last month that I blogged about joining a competition
which could allow me to travel to Denmark or other countries for office-visit right?
Yes, it is...I am now selected as one of the top 10 finalists
Wao ! Guess what was my response when I received the email?
I was too upset and keep telling myself
Oh god ! Who am I o???
Go for finalist? Sure lose one T____T
I kept doubting myself for my own abilities
and I tried my best to get myself back to the right track
I searched online read and re-read about the history of the competition
As it is the first time to launch this competition in Malaysia
thus, I couldn't search more information
I felt so lost because the scope is too wide ! Ah~~~!

But my friends are all very motivating and supporting
They tell me that you are great and you are capable enough !
So go for it !
Okay ~! Thanks everyone !
I finally make up my mind and receive this challenge again ^^
I just replied the confirmation email for the attendance to the final round ^^
So, hope god bless me ! haha !
I think the most funny incident is that...
That...that...that...
Haha ! It is the reply from my adviser for this competition
When everyone asking me to prepare well for the competition
He asks me to relax and take a deep breathe lol
Hahaha ! He asks me to go for swimming too (using a funny word) XD
And the most important thing is that he asks me to prepare nothing for it now
Though the competition is on next Friday @.@
Why? Haha ! He gives me tips on presentation and that's all XD
This email is motivating enough XD
Haha ! As I can find out the direction that I should focus for the competition
So? Okay~? keep calm, and can start preparing for my progress test next Saturday T__T
One thing I dislike this competition is that its deadlines are always clash with my exam
It's really testing on my multitask abilities @.@

Okay, I will try my best for the both challenge next week
To win the competition and pass the ACCA test !
Okay?! Finger crossed
I promise myself ^^ (Haha ! It's gonna been a Japanese dinner right after my test ^^)
And very thankful to my dear ex-roomate and her bf
For agreeing to come and support me for the ceremony
Because I am given to seats free for the award-giving ceremony
And my parents aren't suitable to attend and it's their will too
So I have to find friends... (Accounting student never waste this kind of chance)
2 seats? For sure I have to look for couple lol
Haha ! For those who are not invited, please forgive me XD
Because it doesn't mean that you are not my friends ^^
It is just the matter of constraint > <
Haha !

问题

当你没权利做决定
但决定的后果是大家分担的
并且那决定不是你要的
你会怎么做？
当被牵涉的人来投诉时
你会如何向牵涉的人解释？

虽然不是第一次遇见这问题
但有时还是会措手不及…
我通常都是会站在一team的立场啦！
不懂这会是最好的吗？

等等等

命运如果有门，名字就叫心门，并不是能不能，而是肯不肯

第一站叫天真、第二站叫青春，下一站的名字等你去确认

期待一趟旅程，精彩万分，你却还在等

等到荒废青春、用尽体温，才开始悔恨


五月天的《第二人生》，有意思，有意思…哈哈!

Yen-J

最近我爱上了他

哈哈哈！帅到 ~~~

哈哈!

再见大三

做case做到我傻傻了

哈哈！老师给的7天限期很有效

不然我一定不做先

还想玩玩玩、偷懒

或者做那4份reports先

考完试的那几天

还玩的不错

唱K、狗line集会、好友还带我去活堂，讲解佛理

(那天唱K唱了7-8个小时的四舍傻人)

哈哈！那几天还去上了一个briefing和class

omg!那堂class真的让我笑得快哭了！

哈哈哈哈！

朋友问我为何没去台湾exchange?

面子书里，几乎所有的朋友都去台湾

玩的玩、exchange的exchange

为何exchange那么容易申请都不去？

我回答说，因为选择了ACCA

哈哈哈！

朋友：“哦…You sacrifice for a better future…"

朋友：“waseh…伟大…”

我：“I dun really know whether it will lead me to a better future…”

我：“I am still doubting whether it worth my time.”

哈哈哈！看来我选择这条路

却对自己没信心，不能不能

因该加多一句

“but I know, if I never try, I will never know.”

哈哈！对吗？

最近很急着学习，很急着毕业

不懂自己伤了什么脑根

突然变得那么积极

hmm~同时也很希望比赛能赢

另一个还没那么想赢

哈哈哈！因为这个胜利了

我能飞到Europe !

这个年龄的我们

除了fama或借钱

我想会很难有此机会的

哈哈哈！

成绩能快点揭晓吗？我等不及了！

Hmm~快踏进大四了

好快呀！仿佛昨天我还是大一

回顾我大三的日子

(大三考完第三张纸拍的合照)

很少人吧?因为大家都拿着不同的科

哈哈!

我的大三…完了

Hmm~还过得不错

觉得自己有所成长了

我完成了UMAC BOD

一个一年多的责任，虽然还未能完全放下

因为电脑坏了，还有两个reports还没交

但也算告一段落

我很庆幸我是BOD的一份子

因为我从很多人的身上领悟了不同的道理

看事情，也觉得自己不够成熟、不够全面

脾气好像有点改良

人际呢？哈哈！有好有坏吧！

参加活动的好处，莫过于看清自己的优缺点

慢慢从中学习与改善

后悔的是，觉得自己没有100% commit

对不起……

（大三一联系的活动都过了，可能遗留了些，但老了，记不了那么多，哈哈！）

大三里，我也变单身了

所以在感情方面也觉得自己有了不同的成长

虽然偶尔还会隐隐作痛

但还是告诉自己，说加油！

一切会过去的

偶尔还是觉得自己很放不下

心里还是很想关心，很想知道他还好吗？

可是又觉得自己没那么大方

因为我还是很气、很痛

为何你这样就放弃了我……

说爱的是你，不爱的又是你

连分手也不好好地面对

一至逃避，也不敢面对

不觉得面对了，会比较容易放下、看开吗？

我说的面对是两人面对面、说清楚

就算哭、痛、不愿意，也会是那阵子罢了

可是，也或许我给人一种会死前兰打的感觉吧！

也或许你更本不需要这，因为完全忘了，也没把这当成一回事了

哈哈哈！算了……

过了的，就得忘记，不要自己惩罚自己

原谅别人，等于放过自己（我做人的原则^^）

hmm~这样也好，让我领悟了些……

是我太过爱依赖别人，而变成了别人的包袱了

记得刚恋爱时告诉自己说要当个好的女友

免得以后后悔，可是我还是错了

我们俩其实都没有好好的爱过彼此

因为我们没有好好地了解对方，再用对方需要的方式来爱

我们都用着自己的方式来恋爱……

就因为这样错了

两人就这样变成了陌生人

多么的不值得……

在未来的日子里，告诉自己不可重返

还有最重要的

这是女生常犯的，把他变成中心

把自己的喜怒哀乐交给那个他

以前觉得这是幸福

但后来觉得自己错了

你习惯找他分享快乐、投诉不快乐的

等他安抚你的不安，不快乐

可是却没想过失去后

这种习惯会在你身上狠狠加痛……

错了，真的错了，但谢谢你让我成长

大三完了，未来的大四呢？

我要好好读书，degree和ACCA

好好比赛，好好玩，好好聚会

为自己创造一个最特别的学期 ^^

哈哈哈！

毕业前还要去一个长途旅行

想着要自己去，还是约别人呢？

一个人感觉会很不一样叻

嘻嘻！

When Commitments Come

Wondering am I over confident?
Or worrying of being free?
I attended the research project briefing this morning
and the super interesting preparation class in the afternoon
having only 3-hour sleep after exam yesterday
I feel exhausted now, but am going to another activity later
I went to sing K yesterday, as the post-exam celebration
Hahaha XD we sang til 3am @.@
7 to 8 hours in the Neway @.@
There must be something wrong with us
hahaha XD
But why am I saying myself being over confident or worrying of being free?
Haha XD
I have to work for about 4 commitments during the coming sembreak
haha XD and my ACCA class starts next week
hahaha XD
But I think this is good actually
So that I won't rest or play too much
And must be prepared for my future career

Da Da Da

可能太压力了
让我很怀念有人安慰的感觉
这种种的挫折感
让我觉得自己很脆弱
也很糟糕…
没法子，也得生活
加油！
希望今天、明天都会更好！